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UNIVERSAL PATHS

In the lab today, at my computer
I had a sudden vision
Of pillowcases full of butterflies
The wings were tired, beating
Against the cool linen
It wasn't sad;
They could have flown away at any moment. . .
These are universal paths and I believe it.
I've had a such a vision of this road
At sundown and the treeline
But I was fettered all the while I was here
I remember back when I could spend all day in a
churchyard
Reading babies' names and picking flowers
Now I keep appointments
To keep me going somewhere
Because otherwise, I'll sit right here and starve
I can feel my car being hit broadside
I can smell somebody's campfire
I remember being raped and going to jail
Standing on top of a mountain, free as a bird
Wishing the kids wouldn't play in the street -
Screaming when I heard the scream
I remember the stage and the dirt of the street
And sequins
I remember hatboxes
In a room in the rain
I woke up in an upstairs bedroom
My lungs filling with smoke
And not really understanding
That five years was all there would be this time.
And suddenly I want to call a very old number
With a very new reason. . .
Or none at all -
Let's go pick flowers,
Let's walk through puddles.

(c) 10 February 2000
Heather K. Dooley


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